Have you guys ever wondered why people tell lies over and over again(the same ones as a matter of fact) but they never really keep them.
It's always the same...'yes i'll do that' and after 1 hour, nothing!

Some say that it's to let the other party down easy...giving them something to look forward to, but does that really happen after letting them down over and over again...with the same hope, getting smashed over and over again.

It becomes so cliche-ish that you get used to it and in the end, decide not to care.
But can you NOT care at all?
Don't they feel the slashes and gnawing at one's heart every second of our pitiful human-ish existence?
Humans= weird creatures
sometimes, its just easier not to have any hope...
At least you see the world for what it really is and not a painted picture to make yourself feel better.

And what about keeping promises that you CAN keep?
Is it really all that difficult to just do something which you can?
or is it too bothersome or maybe you just bochap.
Why?Are you a sadists?
Do you feel happy when others are at their lowest point?not being able to lift their heads again?feeling the pain of betrayal and solitude?
I don't know if any of you feel this way, but I CERTAINLY do.

Maybe i'm just too emotional...and maybe I am but is it really OKAY to lie about something you can do and not do it at all?
I dont know...
But yeah..thats what i feel.

chu er fan er, yan er wu xin(hanyu pinyin)
damn...reality sucks
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Solitudely me,
23.

P.S
especially if you're awaiting for something and yet... it never comes...
I'm not gonna hang on anymore